Thursday, March 28, 2013

Q&A

Mother, I can't feel anything anymore.

Mother, I can't feel anything anymore.

It's been a while since I've found myself here. Curled up in your bed, eyes soaking wet, laid by your side wishing I could be a child once more. Searching for answers I'm certain I'll never find. Did you know I don't blame you for this mother? Do you know how strong and how weak you are mother? Will you ever love again mother?

Sister, I can't feel anything anymore.

Sister, I can't feel anything anymore.

It's been a while since I've found myself here. Starring into a black sea wishing that there weren't miles between us. Searching for answers I'm certain I'll never find. Did you know you're my stone sister? Can you understand why I left sister? Will I ever be half the person you are sister?

Brother, I can't feel anything anymore.

Brother, I can't feel anything anymore.

It's been a while since I've found myself here.  Surrounded by distant cousins, aunts, and uncles asking me how you are as I pretend I even know you anymore. Searching for answers I'm certain I'll never find. Could you ever forgive me for my lack of understanding brother? Can you let me be close to you so we can stop hurting brother? Do you know you're not alone brother?

Father, I can't feel anything anymore.

Father, I can't feel anything anymore.

It's been a while since I've found myself here. Shuffling through old photos, tearing open old letters, unveiling old memories of your life. Searching for answers I'm certain I'll never find.  How could you leave me father? What did you expect to happen father? Did you think of me in your last hours father?

God, I can't feel anything anymore.

God, I can't feel anything anymore.

It's been a while since I've found myself here. Knees to wood and palm to palm. Searching for answers I'm certain I'll never find. Begging for God to remember me, begging myself to remember Him. Where are you God? Can you answer me God? Would you believe me if I told you I don't believe you any more?

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